Broken Cisterns


Jeremiah 2:13:

My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water.

Sin cannot quench like the living water can. We can try as we might to fill ourselves up with things, people, pleasures — they always leave us wanting more. Christ provides us living water — drink and you will never be thirsty again!

Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them. – John 7:38

Yesterday was not a successful day for me . . .

I gossiped
I judged

God has also been dealing with my pride lately. I am finding that being a Christian is very painful. It is showing me who I really am on the inside. It really is a bitter pill to swallow. But I rejoice in knowing that it is Your perfection that I can trust and not my own.

Make me, shape me Father into who you want me to be.

Test me, LORD, and try me, examine my heart and my mind — Psalms 26:2




“The law breaks the hard heart, but the gospel melts it. A stone duly broken, may be still a hard stone; but the gospel melts.”


Forgiveness and Rebirth

I have had several online conversations recently with folks who are hurting deeply due to the shunning they are experiencing as result of leaving the Watchtower Organization.

It brought to mind how painful it was for me think that my mother would choose an organization over her daughters. My sister was the first to leave the Jehovah’s Witness religion. She suffered at the hands of a physically and mentally abusive husband. The religion offered her nothing in the way of comfort and support. As a teen, I watched as my mother not only shunned my sister, but stood up in a child custody hearing for the man who abused her simply because he was still a member of her congregation. I could not wrap my head around the “why”. I would experience the same pain when I chose to leave a religion that left me bruised and friendless. For years I buried the feeling of betrayal, as I know my sister tried to do as well. I deeply loved my mother, I admired how she took care of my disabled sister with such devotion. I missed her friendship all those years. I understood her reasonings, but I could not fathom her abandonment. For a very long while I blamed myself for not staying in the religion just so she would accept my support of her and my sister, I chose to flee for selfish reasons.

Within the past year these painful memories have all resurfaced as the Holy Spirit has been leading me out of the trap of legalism and fear. I have a had a lot to work through.

As I move towards my baptism this weekend and reflect on what has led me to this point, I realize that I am truly free. The pain that resurfaced is being washed away. It is being replaced by the joy I am feeling in being made a new person in Him. While I have long since forgiven my mother, I realize that any residual bitterness towards a group, needs to be put aside before I dip my toe into that water. Christ has forgiven me so much.

But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,

— Matthew 5:44

I heard the voice…

I heard the voice of Jesus say, “Come unto me and rest; lay down, thy weary one, lay down thy head upon my breast.” I came to Jesus as I was, weary worn and sad; I found him in a resting place and He has made me glad.” — Horatius Bonar 1846

Watchtower Investigated UK

The WT for this period seems particularly ‘feisty’, with the cover headline ‘Should you trust religion’? The picture is of some kind of probably health and wealth or word of faith preacher sporting a cross on the lapel of course. ‘Some people find it hard to trust religion because of past disappointments’ it says! Learn more about a religion that is worthy of your confidence!! Man alive that’s fresh coming from a religion that specializes in false promises and keeps itself going on what MIGHT happen just around the corner. The tactic here is to rely on the situation that the readers don’t actually know much about JWs or the WT. The ‘sell’ is easy to contrast the pristine Watchtower with the all to obvious imperfections of other Churches.
The Truth book from the 1960s had a great quote on p8 all about examining your own religion and it equally…

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Of Frogs and Idols


Today is Read Across America so I shared a story this morning with my daughter Evie’s classmates from Frog & Toad entitled “Cookies”. One of my favorites. It is a amusing look at one’s struggle with will power. Frog and Toad know that if they continue to eat the cookies they will get sick, but at the same time the cookies are so delicious. They struggle to find a way to force themselves to stop eating them. In the end they throw those cookies on the ground for the birds.

“Now we have no more cookies to eat,” said Toad sadly.
“Not even one.”
“Yes,” said Frog, “but we have lots and lots of willpower.”
“You may keep it all, Frog,” said Toad. “I am going home now to bake a cake.”

This story reminds me of the parable on the rich man, when he was told in order to follow Jesus he had to give up the one thing that he loved more than God — money. He went away sad.

I heard a recent sermon on the subject of idols in our lives and the reason it is so hard to give up idols may well be due to the fact that even though we say we want to turn from (give them up) — deep down inside we really do not want to be rid of them.

Now, there is nothing wrong with having money, enjoying food, or enjoying things. It’s when these things are abused or are made the center of your being, take over your life — that is where idolatry comes into play. I think about how I use food and it is clear to me it has, become an idol. It is the thing I run to when I need comfort, when I am happy, it has become the thing that consumes my thoughts.

I do not want to go away sad when I know that I must give up something that takes the place of where my mind and thoughts should really be.

I have kept the commands of your lips. I have treasured the words of your mouth more than my necessary food. — Job 23:12

Memorizing Verses

Fix these words of mine into your mind and being, and tie them as a reminder on your hands and let them be symbols on your forehead. — Deuteronomy 11:18

Push aside all the silly things that crowd my mind Dear Lord. May I make better of my time using it to imprint your Word deep recesses of my subconscience.

Bind them on your forearm; write them on the tablet of your heart. — Proverbs 7:3

Holding Fast

Garden Path and Gate

Job 23:11

My foot has held fast to His path; I have kept His way and not turned aside.